Child's Play

The night after

- Thursday, December 10, 2009

Malam Bakti.

So, performance is done.

And how was it?

Rockiiiinnnnggg.

Hell to the YEAAAHHH!!

The crowd was just AWESOME. They laughed at practically EVERYTHING. all of us cast members back stage were all just going 'WTF?!?!?!' Stuff we did not find even REMOTELY funny, they laughed at. It was just INCREDIBLE. and when they laughed, gosh, we just feed off that, and everyones acting just went UP UP UP!!

I wasn't in the first act and only come in after intermission. So during intermission the cast members were all high fiving and everything and i was all like, OMG what if i just go in and screw everything up??! like SERIOUSLY. OMG OMG OMG, was a little panicky, but it all turned out A-OKAY! =D I mean, i thought i was okay in the sense that i didn't forget any of my lines, though i did not enunciate some of my words properly (bleah) but other people i asked said i did great and they didn't notice so OKAY!

and people said i was bitchy
and lansi

Again,

HELL TO THE YEAAAAHHH XD

Did smile a bit when i screwed up my pronunciation like once or twice though =___=" sister and karen said they saw, ZOMG but they said it was okay. so OKAAAY!! senior who previously told me i was too smiley told me i was good today (less smiley) =D YAY!!!

Glad its over, hyped hyped up, but have to go to bed and do my homework all by tomorrow cause im having classes on friday and its all due. also have to pack and move all my stuff to... somewhere. omigod. so much stuff to do, so little time.

I'll be home by sunday. GOODNESS.

time does fly.

*exhales*

Good day.
Good day today.

The night before

- Wednesday, December 09, 2009

Malaysian Night (malam bakti) performance tomorrow.

Im too tired right now to panic, but im thinking when i wake up tomorrow, im gonna be seriously panicky (omg look what happened to my vocab. panic panic panic). Headache starting to kick in, im thinking sleep would be good, like ASAP. but first,

Can't wait for this to be OVER.

Final thoughts,

Needed to practice my scene again, but did not get the chance to. Only practiced it once tonight, and that was so screwed up. Messed up some of my lines, couldn't cover it up. People missed their lines, took some time to cover that up. Not half as bitchy as i need to be. Worried, still worried. Unsure. No, not confident.... not confident at all.

Sweaty palms. Hope i dont suddenly drop my notebook in the middle of my act. Hope i dont stutter, hope i pronounce my words because when i get nervous i just speak really really fast and dont enunciate my words properly (but the seniors said i can speak fast and they can still understand me, so i guess thats a plus. But i know i NEED TO SLOW DOWN). CALM CALM CALM

deep breaths.

Need to stop biting my lower lip on stage, though i cant help it. Need to stop swaying from side to side unconsciously. Need to LOOK DOWN ON PEOPLE and be all HIGH AND MIGHTY just like the type of people i hate. CANNOT FORGET MY LINES.

NO. PLEASE. NO.

Especially that ONE MOST IMPORTANT LINE that i somehow always manage to screw up. AM I AMAZING OR WHAT? =___=" Need to stay calm, need to breathe, need to think. need to FOCUS.

I CAN DO THIS.

if i screw up, then....

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uh-oh. TT

SIGH! SLEEP!!!!

Wish me luck, people! Im going to need it!

Screw this Shit.

- Monday, December 07, 2009

Nice people make my day; Bitches should fall off the face of the earth, get sucked into a black hole and spend their lives trying to find the way out but never do and die. SAD, LONELY, depressed, LONELY (oh wait, i've said that), HUNGRY and, painfully.

Guard at Old Building was really nice today x) Held the door open for me whenever i had to go into the building, and before i went out to get food, he was all

'Hey darling, how are you doing today?'
' x) Good!'

Then after i was done eating, went out looking for a rubbish bin. Couldn't find one so i guess i looked pretty lost,

'Hey princess, is there anything you need?'
'Rubbish bin, i can't seem to find it!'
'Oh, just because you're so beautiful, i'll throw it for you.'
*takes rubbish from me*
'Aaaww!! thank yooouuu!! x)'

Heartsiesss!!
Was so cheerful for the next hour or so!

On another note, I love it when strangers on the street smile at me, or give me that nod of acknowledgment. I hate it when strangers on the street think its FUNNY to scare you, or TAP you on the shoulder with their umbrellas and give you the 'hey, whats up?' look when you CLEARLY have NO CLUE who in the world they are. I also hate people who think highly of themselves, those with egos the size of mars and talk to you like they're KING and you are the lowly peasant that should BOW TO THEM and kiss their feet and worship them like they're God. Also, i find strangers from clubs who dance near you and your group of friends trying to blend in kind of hilarious. And i have a thing for guys who are gentlemen.

But you already knew that.

Seeing squirrels in the park make me happy. They're so cuuute and fat and just AAWWWWW!! Im trying to like, walk across the park everyday in hopes that some day they'll learn to recognize me as their queen and worship me by killing all lizards and cockroaches in the woooorlllddd!!!! and then we work towards world domination. Gotta start small, see? the squirrels take over! =D World domination is just a few park walks AWAAAYYY!!!

Fat pigeons with bulging eyes seriously remind me of that one koi fish i overfed which looked like its eyes were going to pop out of its ridiculously fat head and then died. I feel really bad =( BUT WHY THE HELL WAS IT SO GREEDY. TT fat pigeons scare me. The fact that they dont fly away and just stare back at you with their big beady gonna-pop-outta-head eyes just make things so much worse.

On a last note (before i go to bed, FUDGE, its 2am and i have lectures tomorrow early in the morning), Wongfuproductions are having this AWKWARD TURTLE contest where you submit the story of your MOST AWKWARD moment and stand a chance to win the awkward turtle plush =D Fan-friggin-AWESOME!!!!

So get your mojo on, start recalling and typing!

Im trying.
Can you tell?
STFU STFU STFU

Cupcakes. Unicorns. Rainbows.

- Monday, November 30, 2009

Feelings now

Other times

Miss

Sick of

Needs

Should

Wants

Thinking of

Night, loves.

You're never fully dressed without a smile

- Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Pokemon Cards and Dragonball Comic book

IN BRISTOL MUSEUM

HAHAHHAHAHAHAH
WTH
WTH
WTH
.

May is thoroughly amused.

In other news, went to Cardiff and Bristol last weekend. Saw my fatty cousin and weikhai and brian, so that was all good. Was super sad, cause i was running late to take the bus from cardiff to bristol, so cousin and i sped walked all the way, then there was this weird maze ass bar thingy that we had to walk through at the end of it there was this guard person that took me to the bus. I thought cousin was following behind me after i took my bag from him, but he wasn't. I looked back and he was GONE. So i didnt manage to say bye properly, and was damn damn damn emo on the bus. TT Sigh.

Didnt do much in both cardiff and bristol, mainly cause there wasnt much to do, but also cause the weather was pretty shitty. Rain one second, sunny the other. wth laaaah, stupid weather so bloody temperamental. I dont mind the rain really, its just that the wind is so STRONG (as mentioned in previous post) that the umbrella gets difficult to handle. bleaaaah, was nice seeing all the old familiar faces again, and talking lots lots lots. When it was time to leave, i got all emo on the bus and totally teared. =__=" thank god there was this short ride from the bus stop to the station and from the bus stop, there was only i think 9 of us. so i dont think anyone saw that i teared? Like at the station SO MANY ppl got on. Stupid person who sat behind me kept kicking my chair. GRRness.

Got back and told karen that i felt emo, like, i havent really been able to talk to anyone here? like really really anyway, and i didnt know how much i missed that until i met up with them and its like GAAAAH EMONESS. Karen was so sweeeeeet x) She immediately offered for me to stay over at her place whenever i want. HOHO I LOVE YOU LAH WOMAN!! x)

I swear though, its not THAT bad here.

Im just pms-ing. No, really.

And you know what happens when i pms, i get super emotional. I cry when i watch children movies. So anyway. Ahem-hem. XD And ironically, HOHO, today after class, suet and i got hot chocolate from the bar (wanted to see how the machine worked, damn jakun) and i went to her room to finish it, cause i split some while i was carrying it (ITS NOT MY FAULT, THE DRINK SWISHES AROUND IN THE CUP TOO MUCH). and we wounded up talking... for damn long.

LOL

like seriously just forgot the time. I thought we only talked for a short while, but at one point she went, 'eh whats the time now ar?' *glance at watch* 'WTH ITS SIX THIRTY!!' =___=" talk for 3 hours jor. she was supposed to do her accounts and read the script, i was supposed to MEMORISE the script (im performing for malaysian night). *slaps forehead* lol but we had a good talk XD SO IT'S ALL GOOD. then we had dinner and went for rehearsal....

and got back at 12.
TT

Thank Goodness i only have one lecture tomorrow.

Anyway, just a short update to show you guys that im well and alive here!! =)

And, short conversation between cousin and I when i went over,

'OH NO! have you lost all your fats? =('
'Don't worry! they're still here!'

LOL!!!

LOVE!!!

oh, I Just can't wait to be King

- Sunday, November 15, 2009

In all species in which the female makes greater parental investment than the male (such as humans and all other mammals), mating is a female choice; it happens when the female wants it to happen, and with whom she wants it to happen, not when the male wants it to happen.

The power of female choice becomes quite apparent in a simple thought experiment. Imagine for a moment a society where sex and mating were entirely a male choice; individuals have sex whenever and with whomever men want, not whenever and with whomever women want. What would happen in such a society? Absolutely nothing, because people would never stop having sex! There would be no civilization in such a society, because people would not do anything besides have sex. This, incidentally, is the reason why gay men never stop having sex: there are no women in their relationships to say no. Sexually active straight men on average have had 16.5 sex partners since age 18; gay men have had 42.8.

In reality, however, women do often say no to men. This is why men throughout history have had to conquer foreign lands, win battles and wars, compose symphonies, author books, write sonnets, paint portraits and cathedral ceilings, make scientific discoveries, play in rock bands, and write new computer software, in order to impress women so that they will agree to have sex with them. There would be no civilization, no art, no literature, no music, no Beatles, no Microsoft, if sex and mating were a male choice. Men have built (and destroyed) civilizations in order to impress women so that they might say yes. Women are the reason men do everything.

- Why Beautiful People Have More Daughters
Alan S. Miller and Satoshi Kanazawa
(pg 132-133)

Hoho, interesting, no?

Wanna have more sex?
You know what you have to do now!
Gay is the way to GOOOO!!

FYI, i'd probably love you even more!! XD In dire need of a gay friend. want to be mine?

Ps. We often forget just how blessed we are. Take a step back, breathe. Things aren't as bad as you think they are. And every other time you forget, just remember. Breathe! And hey, tomorrow is just a day away =)